I am writing here cos i'm pretty sure no else visit here anymore. So many things happen in my life, through shit we grow, we gain, we acquire, knowledge and skills. I learn, oh yes i learn a lot of things. The most impt things i learn is that there's is no one you can depend upon but yourself.

Life, is so fcuk up that i almost wanted to break down and just cry. But i made a vow to myself, i will never again drop tears anymore. Not for myself, not for anyone else anymore.

Things happen for a reason, people always say. Den why is it that even when i strive so hard. yet things just happen for no reason. School work, okay i admit i been slacking through at some point, but i do get my work done right? Everyone work at their own pace. WHO ARE YOU TO DISCRIMINATE PEOPLE?

I tried and i did my best, but did they appreciate it? NO! Eh, wenhau, i think its not good enough, can u like er make it do that and make it do that? Talking is easy, try doing it yourself? I just learn the bloody software all by myself and there is no one teaching, yet u demanded so much?

Even if i work my ass off, all i get is why cant u do better kind of mentality. i am so sick of all these shits anymore. So when i listed down something that is impossible to do? What do i get? black face and more grumbling. Whispers behind my back, oh yeah. not only that. but also affecting the mood of the whole group?

i am really tired. Sometimes i just feel like lying down and just lie there.
i always say this,
Half the battle is lost when u give up.
But somehow, i don't feel like continuing the battle anymore.

well i guess, iamtotallyspeechless. I always told myself, what i have always believed in, that one's hard-work will lead to an positive result. But sadly, that is not the case. idontknowwhattobelieveanymore.

idontknowwhattodoanymore,

lifeislikeamassofconfusionanddisappointment

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andashardtounderstandjustlikethischunkoftextiamwritingalltgt

istheresomethingthatididwrong?orissitsomethingthatiamlackingin.ahcrap.ifeelingsodamnawfulnow.sigh!

idontknow whether is it that i am thinking too much or what.

Life been going on like a mountainous area this few days. AndIdontLikeIt D;
I don't know issit just that i am being overwhelm by my school works or just plain lack of sleep. );

Relationship are at best being described as strained between my group mates. Sometimes i wondered to myself, whether did i make a mistake in the whole damn thing. The choosing of groups, the choosing of course and etc. Everything feels so fcuk up. Ah well, no point lamenting about the past and the choices i made. );

I just have to make do with what i have.

I always love to say, Live life to the fullest and never regret what happened before. I guess its time to take my own advice. No matter what happen in the future, i know. Those decision i made now, probably the best choice i made at that point of time.
And probably i wont get any happier if i made any other choices.
Life is full of ups and downs, Its just the way how u handle it. Now, ain't i sounding like i giving some preaching? haha! Quoted from Edmund, we can't really turn back time can we? So we have to live thru the times now and do the best as we can.

So i'm gonna take up his advice,

"Do the best as i can, in terms of anything, be it r/s, sch works or even my future endeavors."

All the best to myself i guess. (;

有人常说，爱情就象糖果，吃的时候甜甜的，开心的很。但是糖果吃完后，就会有一种失落的感觉。

也有人说，爱情就象是在喝咖啡，开始时苦苦的，慢慢的，细细的，一点一点慢慢变的甜甜的。

但是，

我自己觉得呢，它就象是蜜桃，需要用心来慢慢的拨开，才能品尝到甜美的滋味。但是，如果不用心去品尝，会不小心咬到种子，弄疼自己。这就好象是在爱情里，必须付出真切的心，要细心，要用心，最重要的，要专心。

也许这只是我自己单纯的想法，也或许我只是不够成熟，但是我还是深深的相信，只要努力，只要用力，只要不放气。事情总是有解决的方法。；D

Destressed!!!

Late for class today =( it has been getting into a habit. LOLS! haha! Actually i woke up early today. Due to some protestation by my body, i fell back into sleep again. =( Reach sch at 1050, guess wad? i sat down, took my results btw, I GOT ,B =(. And, class ended at 11.05. =.='' funny thing abt that is, when we are leaving, my lecturer ask Alvin, eh whr u going. He said, lunch. The lecturer was like wad ? lunch? At least tell me that u guys are going studying in the library or something i hear le more comfortable. Den alvin is like waD? i telling u honest ans u telling us to lie? LLOLS!! funny sia (i felt so madly in love right nao!!) xDD

Watch Day Knight with bby today, lols. Destressed quite alot haha!! Recently my workload increased alot T.T. gonna be so damn busy now. sians laaaa!!! Assignments after assignments are pouring in, and deadlines are all getting closer and closer. Gonna start pulling my hair soon. LOL!! hahaha therefore today going out with bby really makes me feel alot better. HAHA!! (We machiam everyday also got meet sia HAHAH)

And lastly,

Thanks bby for helping me to do the blogskin and layouts haha!!

haha!! things have been getting hectic soon. =.='' 1st day of sch and i am already feeling unwell. Woke up early and smsed bby before her exams. haha! halfway thru smsing i fell asleep lols.

Force myself to wake up again at 7.45 T_T. feel like a mental torture haha!. Felt so sick already lols. lost my voice in the morning. i scared my frens with my raspy voice. hahaha!!! sound like some zombie talking. =.='' while they went off for lunch. i spend the time sleeping lols.

Feel abit better when i met with bby in np. =D although its an on and off feeling. =.='' cos now i feel damn dizzy again );

haha!! i tink i am getting so crazy in love with her. ♥

this morning....

haha! Woke up superr damn early this morning and guess wad? i went back to sleep LOL!! lucky i woke up 30 min ltr else i gonna be late for group meeting.

Even though i was abt to be late, i still spend some time changing clothes and stuff. haha!! cos i cant decide what to wear. =.='' Felt so vain but, oh well, who cares =3 hahaha!!! Poor bby, its raining cats dogs now. She must be FREEZING!!!

TAKE CARE DUN GET SICK ♥ hahas. (i felt more and more inlove with u as day passes. haha)

Anyways, i need to get back to do my projects le. =D hahaha!!! Blog again, when i aint so lazy/ when i am bored. lols!

Dinner tgt!

haha, although we have only been really together for a few days, it feels like we are really together for very long le. HAHA!! been really happy about everything xD!! Well well well, what to do, she always make me laugh unexpectedly :3. haha!!

Just as the picture says. i vry selfish one!! hahaha!!! Mine and mine only!! LOLS!! Anw, wasted morning. (Aww she's damn cute!! :3) haha!!

Studied for awhile and watch abit of drama before we both fell asleep. xD!! BOLSTER!!! BEST BOLSTER I EVER GOT. HAHA!! Limited edition one also lo. One and only one.
Head off for dinner tgt with my family and bby. and she was damn shy during dinner. awww =( while i was busy stuffing myself away. HAHAH! AND, MY DAD PRONOUNCE HER NAME WRONG. HAHAHA!!

Anw, each day with BBy is so fun. >

BBY!!!

hahas, this few week went pass like a breeze, each day like so not enough time can. >< life with bby is great LOLS! HAHA although alot things happen in this week.

Went on an adventure camp in tioman, but alot of incident happened, most of it arent good things. and finally it ended off fatally... i still felt guilty everytime i tot of the incident. like if i was just a bit faster to react, i would have caught hold of her and perhaps now she will still be enjoying the trip with us tgt...

i went to the funeral today...
depressing day really... everyone cried like omg.... i got really depressed and stressed out too.. haha but thanks bby for cheering me up. LOL! just being there is good enough for me. (; dk why i see u everytime i will smile lols. must be abit psychotic ahaha.

seems like this week aint a good week for anyone cept perhaps me ba. lols. my fren broke up, accident happened, etc etc... haha the good thing happen to me tis week is when bby agreeed to be my gf. LOLS!! hallelujah. =X

sigh. okay if u tink its my fault. DEN GO AHEAD AND BLAME ME. I DUN CARE ANYMORE!


thanks Miaoxian for the maple picture. haha =)
(P.S Your name big enough? haha)



it cheered me up lols.

For Miao =DD thanks back! LOL!

alright i shall do my work now. lol

Recently, in the past few months in which i din post anything, ok la not so recent la. haha BUT STILL RECENT OKAY!!

alot of things happened. =.='' its feels like the us economy lo. happy and unhappiness. its all feel like an roller-coaster, in which i am looking forward to the end of the journey on the ride with eagerness.

I mean like, people always said before, if u give out 10% of your effort, you recieve back 10% of people helps, and if u give out 100%, u will get back 100% in return too... i tink thats bull shit. LOLS! =X u tink wad, 100% refunded value ar. even u go great singapore sales also dun have such good bargains. =.=''

anws, i am sorta glad that its all going to end. i am quite happy with my current lifestyle. haha!! i feel just so guilty though. =.='' but thanks for my fren for giving advises and encouragement so that i can pull thru this time.

Its time to end the roller-coaster ride, i hope that when i disembark on my next journey, it will be better, funner, and the 100% rebates really exist. lols Anyways. although i going end my journey tmr, i dun feel sad, hahas this few days, or rather this two weeks actually, i feel kinda happy, maybe this the best option for now ba. haha! We shall wait and see. cos maybe i am finally gonna be free. haha! do my own things, live my own life. Leave my long hair. FTWW!!! HAHAHA

WHEEE just finished my car... now cant slp cos too energetic. LOL

hai.. today celebrate 2 years aniversary with da!link. hahahahs so long nvr see her le. =/ was sooo busy with lesson and projects. (sorry i neglected uuu. =/) well took sooo many pictures.. hahahahhs i can upload till tmr nia.. hahas jus joking.. we went to jack place foorr OUR ROMANTIC LUNCH!! WHEEE~~

Wheee.. cut my hair just now. hahahas so malu. i keep stuttering to the lady. hahas dunno wad hairstyle i wanna cut. den look at the book for quite long. Feel so embarrased to have her wait for me so long. Denn i tell her cut to her judgement. lols i tell her i trust her judgement. hahahhahas. Still dunno my hair style got change or not. look de same. ><

Todae school was terrible. OMMGGG realli. i did programming until my head pain lik madd... And i still CANT SOLVE IT. Ahhhhh......... God Shave Meeeee..... ( - h ) hahas

Well SHall blog till here.. till we meet again...

The characters i did for 3MA portfolio. hahas kns right. >< do they look the same character? =/


DVA

hahas.. did some video editing. Wheee video editing is so fun.. filming is fun too. xDD

Well alot happen today. Got into a quarrel with my gf fren. wasnt in a very good mood now. Come on. why cant she just listen to wad people have to say 1st. Isnt life abt taking critisim and improving. if u cant even take this. den forget abt having frens. Leave ur life alone. Its wasnt lik i nvr kena criticise b4. Damn fed up can. And leave her out of this. Dun u ever dare to make her cry. It wasnt her fault. She just did wad anyone would probably do in the situation. You said b4. u dun lik people blogging abt u right. this method is probably as good as being indirect. People dun wan to say it to ur face. Lik she say. telling u in the face u also dun understand.

Thats all i have to say.

The sages do not consider that making no mistakes is a
blessing.
They believe, rather, that the great virtue of man lies in his
ability to correct his mistakes and continually make a new man
of
himself.

-- Wang Yang-Ming

Yo. went to do project todae. xD was damn tired... everyone is so screwed up... hahahhas din realli do much todae. xP went and wanna surprise da... hahahas guess she was kinda expecting me.. Awww... bud aniwaes was happy to see her. xD

life has its up and down.. endure.. and u will.. FLY!!! wheeee

SOme drawings i have done...

Was tiredd much of everyday, din really blogged ever since i went to poly.. hahas but since i was boredd and have nth to do. might as well go blogging.. hahahas... well have lots of fun during open house... dress up as pirate and stuff.. xDD. LOL.. we actually used the sound recording room as KBOx.. hahahahs went youtube search for music videos and started singing.. wad a horrible nightmare.. hahas lucky the room is sound proof.. over stayed tonight.. lols got lock in school.. guess wad?? i climb over the fence of cos.. not going to stay over night man... can u imagine.. LOL a 2 metre plus fence.. taller den yao ming.. with spikes ontop.. and i jump down from it.. omg sia... hahas scratch myself all over.. hahahas

Din feel happy all of a sudden.. hahas somethings happen. sighh.. i jus wish i don have so much to do...