i fucking swear i will change. Noted 28 July, 2010.

i Swear i be damn successful.

and Goddamn it

i swear i will fucking make myself as handsome as i can be.

Thats all, i don't think i will ever be posting again. Too much memories here. Its suffocating me.

Good bye www.xiaoalikuku.blogspot.com forever.

I am writing here cos i'm pretty sure no else visit here anymore. So many things happen in my life, through shit we grow, we gain, we acquire, knowledge and skills. I learn, oh yes i learn a lot of things. The most impt things i learn is that there's is no one you can depend upon but yourself.

Life, is so fcuk up that i almost wanted to break down and just cry. But i made a vow to myself, i will never again drop tears anymore. Not for myself, not for anyone else anymore.

Things happen for a reason, people always say. Den why is it that even when i strive so hard. yet things just happen for no reason. School work, okay i admit i been slacking through at some point, but i do get my work done right? Everyone work at their own pace. WHO ARE YOU TO DISCRIMINATE PEOPLE?

I tried and i did my best, but did they appreciate it? NO! Eh, wenhau, i think its not good enough, can u like er make it do that and make it do that? Talking is easy, try doing it yourself? I just learn the bloody software all by myself and there is no one teaching, yet u demanded so much?

Even if i work my ass off, all i get is why cant u do better kind of mentality. i am so sick of all these shits anymore. So when i listed down something that is impossible to do? What do i get? black face and more grumbling. Whispers behind my back, oh yeah. not only that. but also affecting the mood of the whole group?

i am really tired. Sometimes i just feel like lying down and just lie there.
i always say this,
Half the battle is lost when u give up.
But somehow, i don't feel like continuing the battle anymore.

well i guess, iamtotallyspeechless. I always told myself, what i have always believed in, that one's hard-work will lead to an positive result. But sadly, that is not the case. idontknowwhattobelieveanymore.

idontknowwhattodoanymore,

lifeislikeamassofconfusionanddisappointment

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andashardtounderstandjustlikethischunkoftextiamwritingalltgt

istheresomethingthatididwrong?orissitsomethingthatiamlackingin.ahcrap.ifeelingsodamnawfulnow.sigh!

idontknow whether is it that i am thinking too much or what.

Life been going on like a mountainous area this few days. AndIdontLikeIt D;
I don't know issit just that i am being overwhelm by my school works or just plain lack of sleep. );

Relationship are at best being described as strained between my group mates. Sometimes i wondered to myself, whether did i make a mistake in the whole damn thing. The choosing of groups, the choosing of course and etc. Everything feels so fcuk up. Ah well, no point lamenting about the past and the choices i made. );

I just have to make do with what i have.

I always love to say, Live life to the fullest and never regret what happened before. I guess its time to take my own advice. No matter what happen in the future, i know. Those decision i made now, probably the best choice i made at that point of time.
And probably i wont get any happier if i made any other choices.
Life is full of ups and downs, Its just the way how u handle it. Now, ain't i sounding like i giving some preaching? haha! Quoted from Edmund, we can't really turn back time can we? So we have to live thru the times now and do the best as we can.

So i'm gonna take up his advice,

"Do the best as i can, in terms of anything, be it r/s, sch works or even my future endeavors."

All the best to myself i guess. (;

有人常说，爱情就象糖果，吃的时候甜甜的，开心的很。但是糖果吃完后，就会有一种失落的感觉。

也有人说，爱情就象是在喝咖啡，开始时苦苦的，慢慢的，细细的，一点一点慢慢变的甜甜的。

但是，

我自己觉得呢，它就象是蜜桃，需要用心来慢慢的拨开，才能品尝到甜美的滋味。但是，如果不用心去品尝，会不小心咬到种子，弄疼自己。这就好象是在爱情里，必须付出真切的心，要细心，要用心，最重要的，要专心。

也许这只是我自己单纯的想法，也或许我只是不够成熟，但是我还是深深的相信，只要努力，只要用力，只要不放气。事情总是有解决的方法。；D

Destressed!!!

Late for class today =( it has been getting into a habit. LOLS! haha! Actually i woke up early today. Due to some protestation by my body, i fell back into sleep again. =( Reach sch at 1050, guess wad? i sat down, took my results btw, I GOT ,B =(. And, class ended at 11.05. =.='' funny thing abt that is, when we are leaving, my lecturer ask Alvin, eh whr u going. He said, lunch. The lecturer was like wad ? lunch? At least tell me that u guys are going studying in the library or something i hear le more comfortable. Den alvin is like waD? i telling u honest ans u telling us to lie? LLOLS!! funny sia (i felt so madly in love right nao!!) xDD

Watch Day Knight with bby today, lols. Destressed quite alot haha!! Recently my workload increased alot T.T. gonna be so damn busy now. sians laaaa!!! Assignments after assignments are pouring in, and deadlines are all getting closer and closer. Gonna start pulling my hair soon. LOL!! hahaha therefore today going out with bby really makes me feel alot better. HAHA!! (We machiam everyday also got meet sia HAHAH)

And lastly,

Thanks bby for helping me to do the blogskin and layouts haha!!