I am writing here cos i'm pretty sure no else visit here anymore. So many things happen in my life, through shit we grow, we gain, we acquire, knowledge and skills. I learn, oh yes i learn a lot of things. The most impt things i learn is that there's is no one you can depend upon but yourself.

Life, is so fcuk up that i almost wanted to break down and just cry. But i made a vow to myself, i will never again drop tears anymore. Not for myself, not for anyone else anymore.

Things happen for a reason, people always say. Den why is it that even when i strive so hard. yet things just happen for no reason. School work, okay i admit i been slacking through at some point, but i do get my work done right? Everyone work at their own pace. WHO ARE YOU TO DISCRIMINATE PEOPLE?

I tried and i did my best, but did they appreciate it? NO! Eh, wenhau, i think its not good enough, can u like er make it do that and make it do that? Talking is easy, try doing it yourself? I just learn the bloody software all by myself and there is no one teaching, yet u demanded so much?

Even if i work my ass off, all i get is why cant u do better kind of mentality. i am so sick of all these shits anymore. So when i listed down something that is impossible to do? What do i get? black face and more grumbling. Whispers behind my back, oh yeah. not only that. but also affecting the mood of the whole group?

i am really tired. Sometimes i just feel like lying down and just lie there.
i always say this,
Half the battle is lost when u give up.
But somehow, i don't feel like continuing the battle anymore.